“If any want to become my followers, let them deny
themselves and take up their cross and follow me”!
The first Christians were described as those who were
“turning the world upside down”. (Acts 17 : 6). In Mark’s
Gospel the first words of Jesus are, “Repent and believe in
the good news,” (Mark 1 : 15) the word “repent” being a call
to turn our lives around.
Today’s text returns to this vital theme of change and
reversal, as Jesus gets right to the heart of his message
and calls on his followers to “deny themselves.” In TV
dramas we sometimes hear a character complaining about
another that, “Everything is always about you!” There are
those who believe that we are programmed to be selfish, to
put ourselves first and that there’s no escape; and honesty
compels us to recognise the power of our ego, the emphasis
on ‘Me’. As somebody once wrote: “Edith was a little country
bounded on north and south, east and west by Edith!”
Every parent knows to their discomfort that at the beginning
of life, a baby, though wonderful, is totally absorbed with
self, with being comfortable, getting attention and being
fed. As we grow older our parents and teachers work to
modify that self-centredness. We learn to offer food to
others before we serve ourselves and we are taught manners
designed to make us mindful and respectful of others. But it
isn’t easy, because putting self-interest first has been key
to survival for countless generations. As C. S. Lewis puts
it in “Mere Christianity”, “Repentance means unlearning all
the self-conceit and self-will that we have been training
ourselves into for thousands of years.” So it’s hardly
surprising that we still see selfishness all around us, in
family life, business and politics, national and
international affairs; often with disastrous results for the
least powerful.
If we identify and list some of the qualities of
selfishness, they add up to a thoroughly unattractive
description of humanity; a mug shot, rather like a “Wanted”
poster in an old cowboy film, or a modern photo-fit.
Self-centredness can express itself in self-pity and
complaint, in pride, envy, greed, intolerance and prejudice,
in overweening ambition, an aggressive desire to dominate
and the pursuit of wealth and power. And when power is
gained it’s often used to protect self-interest and
perpetuate injustice and hardship for those with little or
no influence. Are our faces on that poster photo-fit?
Hopefully not so clearly that we will be immediately
recognised! But if we are at all self-aware, each of us will
probably recognise bits of ourselves: attitudes, tendencies
and qualities that make life uncomfortable for others, as
well as for ourselves if we claim to be followers of Christ.
We know in our best moments that we haven’t yet denied
ourselves as much as we should. So how can we take further
steps in the right direction?
There’s another crucial teaching of Jesus that refers to
“self.” He tells us that a key Old Testament rule is to
“love your neighbours as yourself.” In other words, regard
for other people is closely related to how one regards
oneself. So, is the challenge to deny oneself at odds with
the need to love self in order to love neighbour? The answer
is a clear “No”, as long as we understand that Jesus is
setting before us a different way of seeing ourselves in
relation to others. Selfishness is about using others,
manipulating others, dominating others, for our own ends.
For Jesus, loving self is about replacing domination with
humility, manipulation with service, fear with
understanding, hate with love, cruelty with kindness,
harshness with gentleness and hostility with peace.
If these seem like huge and impossible changes then we
should remember that from little acorns great oaks grow. We
can gradually grow out of selfishness through conscious
small daily actions. A kind deed, avoiding a hurtful remark,
not rushing to judgement, patiently bearing with someone who
irritates us and giving time to someone in need.
Perhaps the most remarkable quality of Nelson Mandela was
the way in which, through the long cruel days and years of
imprisonment, he mastered much of his negative self and
defeated fear and, with it, desire for revenge and hatred of
his enemies. And, by so doing, his self respect grew, along
with the desire to serve all the peoples of South Africa.
One of the basic triggers of selfishness is fear. We all
experience it at times: fear of the dark, fear of failure,
fear of loneliness, illness or old age, fear of poverty or
loss. Fear can make us aggressive or turn us into cowards;
it can fuel anger or turn us in on ourselves. Loving
ourselves includes recognising that fear is part of
our nature, and that to understand our own fears helps us to
go some way to understanding the fears of others, and
therefore be more able to turn our backs on hostility and
face in the direction of gentleness, compassion and
love.
Cardinal Newman wrote: “When we surrender ourselves we are
victors. We are most ourselves when we lose sight of
ourselves.” Just as it’s possible to draw up a picture of
selfishness and see something of ourselves in it, so too we
can draw up a photo-fit profile of lives in which
self-centredness has given way to an understanding that we
are only ourselves when, in love for others, we lose sight
of ourselves. Today’s epistle passage from Romans describes
the qualities that help each of us to become such a person.
“Let love be genuine, hate what is evil, hold fast to what
is good; love one another … be ardent in spirit, serve the
Lord, rejoice in hope, be patient in suffering, persevere in
prayer, contribute to the needs of the saints, extend
hospitality to strangers.”
It’s a wonderful catalogue and hopefully we can see in it at
least some reflections of ourselves. But the face which
appears clearly on the resulting poster is that of Christ
himself.
In all our wrestling with self, as we seek to replace
selfishness with a Christlike understanding of self-giving,
even more important than the challenging command of Jesus to
deny self, is his own example, his supreme gift to us. What
we see in his life is one who lives out his teaching. Fear,
aggression, power seeking, self-assertion and ambition are
all defeated and replaced by the closest relationship with
God the Father, the profoundest concern for his human
brothers and sisters, with the deepest compassion for the
last and the least, and a love that is prepared to give up
life itself for others. The passion and death of Christ is
the ultimate denial of self for the sake of the world; the
perfect reconstruction of self in the service of others.
The cross is an event of revelation because it illuminates
possibilities for which we were previously blind,
possibilities of turning the world upside down and ourselves
around, of denying self and loving our neighbour, of
discovering for everyone, life in all its fullness.